WhiTeCoMeT's ArEa

2008-03-10T02:23:00.003+08:00

MOVED

2008-03-03T18:59:00.003+08:00

MOVED

exam finish

2008-02-27T00:19:00.003+08:00

MOVED

himalaya singh

2008-02-23T15:40:00.007+08:00

MOVED

final count down

2008-02-21T17:35:00.007+08:00

afew more days and it will be my exam papers. BUT i do not have the mood to study at all. seem like everyting i study is not entering my head. argh. so dead.

but tat aside. tml gotta show our MP to our course manager. Dr Lim . i juz wanna say his management sux. he of all ppl shld know tat our exams is tis coming mon. and yet he wants us to show him our proj. wth. we are not super students or ppl wif computer chips in our brains. we need every precious time to study. esp those staying far. imagine the time the lost travelling to and fro. come on la. really wonder hw he get a position to be the course manager -.-

all i can say is MWC really need to tink back abt their management and everyting and redo everyting. coz the whole system in MWC is a total screw up and it totally sux
-wish i can have a chance to be able to ask u out alone one of this days =x -
-serious mugging in progress...-

final exam in TP

2008-02-18T01:18:00.002+08:00

finally its here. the final study week i gonna have in TP has started. shall give my all and try to get as close to my target as much as possible.
and in one weeks time i gonna have my final 2 papers in TP. well now i juz pray i can do well for these last and final 2 papers.

hmmm. the lack of slp has made my immune system to go down. currently suffering frm slight sorethroat. and a serious headache. well i juz hope i can be well enuf to study and sit for the 2 papers. now shall find some ways to get mysef better..

tired.

2008-02-17T01:08:00.002+08:00

seriously . i really dont freaking care anymore!!!
do wadever u guys want to do... dont ever come running back and ask for a solution. damnit!

you guys tinks i have lots of time to handle all tis!?!?
freaking hell no!
all you guys know wad to do is run away and avoid facing it. im facing tis ALONE!! now.

i really do not have much strength left to cont wif all tis kind of nonsenses. im saying here. im really tired. i also have my life to go on. and my life is currently not in a very gd shape too. so please do not give me such ridiculous nonsenses anymore. im really tired...
juz whn i need it u guys happily disappeared. crap...

for one last time. im T.I.R.E.D!!!
physically, mentally and emotionally.........

end of MP

2008-02-16T13:10:00.002+08:00

fianlly. after 4 mths of hardwork, we presented our Major project yesterday to both our supervisor and evaluator. it was great. except for the last part when our program is suppose to loop. it didnt. and all due to the fact tat the sch com is causing all the problems. an whn tested on the laptop, it works perfectly fine -.-

but i have to say we gone thru much and finally get wad we have today. it seems like only yesterday when we were discussing what we want to do and forming of our grps. everyting passes so fast. and soon so will be my poly life...

im really thankful for my grp mates jerry and my bud yt... giving me the chance to work wif thm thou my results are much lower thn thm. I really want to thank wei sheng too for helping us in wadever assignments we have and sparing his time to help us and support our grp. thanks...

well. now is the last leg of my poly life. which is 2 exam papers on 25th and 26th of Feb. after which i can say i graduate from poly. i really cant bare to leave. tis 3 yrs of poly is really fun and i really make alot of gd frens. and esp a very very very special fren to me.
i noe after grad tings will bond to change. but still. i really wish and hope and pray tat my relationship wif my tis special friend will nvr ever change. and will cont tis manner or even better forever and ever. i really do pray for tis...

well till thn is concentrate on exam now.
9 more days till end of TP life...

final lap

2008-02-15T00:39:00.003+08:00

in a few hours time i will be presenting my Major Project to my supervisor and evaluator. finally tis day has come. to end of our MP and all the tings we done. had alot of happy and frustrating times while doing tis proj. but i tink all is worth it... and now i miss the time i did my MP. now it can onli be memories...

now is the countdown of 11 days before my poly life ends. so within tis short short period of time. i shall have as many enjoyable times wif my frens to keep happy memories wif me. the thought of parting wif my frens juz make me really sad. as i know for sure i going to miss all of them and the happy times we have tgt =)
so till thn i shall enjoy every single moment i have wif them...

disappointment

2008-02-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

haix. im disappointed tat i cant attend my last yr in TP dinner and dance. really wish to go, but seem like my last chance of going is gone. and i tot i had hopes of attending it . but now it juz burst rite infront of me.
haix. im reay disappointed tat i cant attend the dinner and dance. more over its my last yr. seem like nice memories of such functions cant happen...

end of cny

2008-02-09T01:36:00.000+08:00

well. firstly i feel tis yr CNY do not have the feeling tat it suppose to have. i feel like it still lack tings here and there. but well it all still end well. except for my sorethroat due to insufficient slp and the minor accident i had while driving =x

well now gotta start on my 2 final project reports tat are due monday and tuesday respectively. and a presentation on fri. gonno chiong for the last lap + the exams and i gonna graduate. and wonder wad life holds for me after poly...

planning to apply for uni to get a reserved slot after my NS service. but still tinking wad course i want. but im running out of time to tink!!
options im tinking currently (ranked frm 1st choice to 4th in order):
1) banking and finance
2) accounting
3) computer science
4) psychology
haix wonder which one shld i choose.

now i tink i shld stay focus on my reports first and get it done and over wif. hope i will be able to hold on. coz i tink im falling sick soon =/

cold..cold..cold..

barries are back between us?? i really hope is im tinking too much and nth is going on. coz i juz hope if there is i can lift it once agn. i hope. haix

tings happened

2008-02-06T18:14:00.000+08:00

many things had happen recently to my life really. and tings are like hitting me frm every direction suddenly. wif all these tings suddenly coming at me. i do not know wad to do suddenly and im lost again currently. there are mixture of feelings inside me right now. and im really scared i will be unable to handle it. haix. im so lost now...

heard of the tings. and now i have a clearer pic of wads going on. i nvr knew it has reached such condition. and became so complicated. but im really glad tat i heard all tis. i guess and hope tings can be like the past. where everyting is simple and easy and happy. i really hope so...and be back to hw it was...

however im still lost now. i hope time can help me get out of tis maze... and that after the chinese new year tings will change for the better

well. shall not tink of all tis during chinese new year. and will enjoy my CNY fully and collect many many red packets

blood type

2008-02-06T17:52:00.000+08:00

Your blood type is AB.

Your personality is popular yet controlled, sociable yet aloof,
Outgoing yet shy, sensitive yet thoughtless, a very split personality.
This makes you very exciting friend indeed.

You are most compatible with: everyone!

Is tis really true???
seem like is half is half not. i donno. maybe u guys can tell me

everything. changed

2008-02-06T01:43:00.000+08:00

我到底做錯了什麽？被人這樣對待。。。
全部的東西都已時間的流動已變了。。。
變得和以前很不一樣。。。
快樂的時候后還念念得留在我腦里。。。
可是全部的東西我看了。都變了。。。
好懷念。。。
真希望能回到過去把時光停留在那一刻。。。

Dont be bothered abt tis. is juz a random post by random chinese characters that came to my mind as im writing. so everything juz goes in...

1001 nites

2008-02-06T01:29:00.000+08:00

曲名:一千零一夜
词唱:邰正宵

她总是不言不语
黄昏等到天微明
拔弄着怀那把无弘琴

寂寞里秋来春去
诺言随风都飘零
梦中人
还是没捎来一点消息

一千零一夜
没有一夜不思念
每一份想念
化做不成双的蝶
一千零一夜
没有一夜不流泪
流到心里面变成雪

那一夜一场大雨
园里的花落满地
那是他为她种的金线菊

当有人劝她放弃
她会微笑看着你
手心中
紧紧握着发黄的回忆

一千零一夜
夜夜看到她思念
究竞谁让她
有那么忧虑的脸
一千零一夜
夜夜听到她流泪
不知该怎么去安慰

是真心都疼真心
让我就从今夜起
在身边
为她轻唱温暖的旋律

cny

2008-02-05T01:56:00.000+08:00

yay. chinese new year is juz round the corner. so got a new song for my blog. haha

got a mix feeling of wanting Chinese new here to come but at the same time dont. why?
it is because wif cny coming means my time left for my MP reports is becoming shorter too. argh
also will need to rush sch work AGN during CNY -.-
hw nice an "ang bao" given my TP...

well. wif all the submissions coming. means exam is coming means graduationg is coming too. got a reluctant feeling of not wanting to graduate. why?
it is because i do not want to leave my frens. my bond wif them had been tight. and i do not know after graduation wad will happen. hw our life will be. im really scared i will lose contact wif my frens and nvr get to see some ppl agn. esp my closest buddy. im really scared... -_-

*hmmm. afew ppl told me tis, and told me to trust it. but to be frank i really do not know... and im scared sometimes. haix. wad shld i do?? angel and devil dancing beside my 2 ears*

wts end

2008-02-02T01:05:00.000+08:00

finally handed up my WTS report and only left with the demo on the coming wed. finally i can take a breather for a moment and catch my breath b4 chionging for my entrepreneur.
well a gd news is our mp final report submission has been pushed back by 1 wk. give us more time to do our work. however. still the schedules are pack. and i tink i broke down mentally and emotionally unknowingly. its all thanks to a certain someone that helped me get back on my feet with all the problems crushing down on me. The certain someone has helped me to pull thru this ordeal and provided me the support tat i needed. and is always there by my side to provide me with the support tat i need from time to time.
To this special person. thank you alot for all your support that u provided me with. im really appriciate it and happy to have u. 謝謝你陪伴著我。 Now its my turn to support u in wadever ways i can =)

messy mess mess

2008-01-31T16:02:00.000+08:00

now lots of datelines for our projects are approaching. need to hand up wts tomorrow at 5pm and im still not really done yet and somethings are still needed to be cleared and solve

everything also not going right for me now. some conflicts to be solved. projects to be rushed and handed in but still having the need to debug. laptop has not been kind to me too. giving me headache of god-knows wad problem is it. also my new hard disk is giving me problems again. tink some virus had infected it. im really scared tings will happen to my hard disk and many important things are in it.

haix. i can feel i do not have enough slp due to my rushing of problems. feel tat i will fall sick anytime soon as having running nose and slight sore throat. donno whether i can pull thru. haix.
really dont wish to be down. coz i noe i still need to do certain tings and provide my support.

tired

2008-01-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

pass 3 days many tings happened to me.
firstly our HK frens came to singapore to visit and left yest 28 Jan 2008 6:30pm flight. well i donno if i had been a good host or wad not. but i do hope they enjoyed themselves and that i will be able to see them again soon either in HK or Singapore

beside tis other tings happened. my life is in a rollercoaster now. im tired... really tired. physically, mentally and emotionally. everyting juz happen. and trying to cover up in front of my HK frens is tough...

yes im tinking alot!
yes im jealous/ envy!
yes im scared!
yes im not happy!
so what wif all these. coz im alone and will always be.

questions and answers

2008-01-21T10:57:00.000+08:00

thoughts of how can i know something and understand it. and after understanding it . that i can change. seems like things i done so far did not have any progress. and im still stuck at square one with no progress at all. haix. wondering...

many people asked. many different answers given. which of thm are true frm my hear which of thm are not? thats for you to find out and for me to know. becoz i myself do not know too.

do not bother about all thin. is juz some random spoutings...

tired.

2008-01-19T12:13:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i feel this way. im tired. after so l0ng. but actually i dont really care abt my fatigue coz i still have to and will provide the support tat my frens need. so wads tis little fatigue. haha will not care abt it. =X

interim presentation juz over. want to say my grp did well for it as we didnt get "shoot" by many questions except for one question regarding on price of our product. haha but overall we did good. esp my grp mates. (didnt do much on my part) =p

ppl question me some questions lately. sometimes i dont really know hw to ans. and the ans i gave sometimes i doubt it myself of the ans i gave is it really wad i want to ans. but guess there is no turning back now and move on and wait?

first driving exp

2008-01-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

wheee. today had my first actual driving experience wif my license.
drove frm home(Tampines) to uniSIM (Bukit Timah)

well. was abit nervous at first. then after awhile was ok. but i guess my driving was quite sided to the left of the lane. so shall slowly adjust, and need to get use to the car accelerator. still not really use to it thou. haha.

but overall was fun and fresh experience

song lyrics

2008-01-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

its been some time since i post up a song lyric. so here is one tat once again i find it nice =)

等待 - 陳奕
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＊我守候在妳家的門外
整個晚上　都不離開
我想妳靠在我的胸懷
我要將感覺留到EVERY NIGHT

＃走在吵鬧擁擠的人海
我想要好好感覺妳的存在
望著遙遠灰色的星海
一個人　孤獨的發呆

＋我依然還在等待　等待妳會明白
一顆堅強的心在等妳回來
風在吹　讓它擦去我臉上的淚
不要以為我真的無所謂

％我依然還在等待　等待妳會明白
一顆堅強的心在等妳回來
不怕累　只要我的身邊有妳陪
請妳相信我是真的不後悔

REPEAT ＊,＃　＃＊＃＋％＋％

請妳相信我是真的不後悔

mistakes

2008-01-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

first like to share a quote i tink is quite true. juz suddenly tink of it.
" in order to be successful in something. one must enjoy that particular thing"
juz so happen it juz come to my head randomly

Many tings have happened as time goes. and undoubtedly everyone will make a mistake or two as time goes. im no surprise. now how i wish i can go back in time and prevent the mistake frm happeneing. how i wish time can go back in time and live the way how tings were previously.
wish to be ignorant and bliss and do not know anyting. tat way i can live life more happily and i tink everyone too will be happy. coz they will not know abt stuffs they dont need to know.

i wish to start all over agn. but can i do tat? waiting? can i succeed? and my "6th sense" is tingling (for those who donno. i tend to have feelings whn bad tings are going to happen)
i really wonder wad will happen in future..

currently has 2 injuries. but the injury is more painful on the inside thn the outside. wonder wads wrong. hmmm

i guess i shld try to stop tinking and all and juz relax.. maybe i shld juz do tat...

i have no idea where im heading now...

new goal

2008-01-10T09:56:00.000+08:00

back from HK and got back my term test results. but they are not wad i wanted. so dont want to talk about it.
shall work harder wif my projects and exam papers.

well tat aside. after talking to some ppl. it made me realize to set for myself a new long term goal. and tat is to be a successful person. but i wonder if i can do it. coz firstly i need to overcome an obstacle which i know it a wall tat will prevent me frm moving ahead.

so i hope tat i will be able to over come tis barrier

back from HK

2008-01-06T00:43:00.000+08:00

HI ALL!!
juz got back frm my Hong Kong trip
all i got to say is it is tiring due to the lack of slp BUT it is very fun and fruitful. thou sometimes tink of certain tings. but its still ok.
learnt alot from tis trip and i find it is very worth for me to wnt.

here is a summary of my days in HK till i post up fotos and edit my post:

Day 1 (28 DEC 2007)
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landed in HK at ard 9+ 10pm. lost my luggage thou. so cant change my clothes =((
fetch back to our place to stay which is in a temple. wnt for light supper thn is lala land.

Day 2 (29 DEC 2007)
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walked ard to see diff places of attractions in HK. walked from morning till nite time. and by the time we finish my legs were aching.

Day 3 (30 DEC 2007)
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Had some activities in the temple. thn set out to Wu Sha Youth Village. it is actaully more of a camp to me. checked in the place and split up to our diff grps. didnt have the energy to know the ppl there. so bathed and slpt.

Day 4 (31 DEC 2007)
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had some grp activities till ard evening time where after tat our singapore grp wnt to prepare our food and game booth. after which had games wif our dorm grps. thn lit the "bao lian deng" but our grp one burnt halfway =(
after tis counted down for new year. after count down packed up our booth thn wnt back to dorm and slp.

Day 5 (1 JAN 2008)
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had some country grp activities. thn had treasure hunting game in out dorm grps. after which prepared for country musical performance and modeling performance. after the event our singapore grp won 3 awards in total. after that did a small feedback session and wnt back dorm to slp.

Day 6 (2 JAN 2008)
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Had bbq of vegetarian food which is very very nice. after that checked out frm the camp at ard 1+pm. thn wnt back to the place where we first stayed to put our luggage. thn meet up and wnt to woman street (女人街） to shop. onli bought a shade frm there thn had dessert there, thn wn back to our place and slp.

Day 7 (3 JAN 2008)
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wnt to da yu san to see the big big Buddha. had lunch there which was very large portion and very nice. after which wnt to a shopping mall that is all the brand outlet stores to shop an while. bought a new pair of shoes frm there. thn after tat wnt to meet some of the HK camp organizer for dinner. slacked and wnt back to slp.

Day 8 (4 JAN 2008)
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wnt to shenzhen and had a madness shopping spree there. haha
changes 50SGD onli and bought 4 items (1 bag, 1 shades, 1 psp pouch, 1 long sleeve top wif hoody) had a great time bargaining. haha
after shopping wht for dinner at a restaurant wif a very nice ambiance. after dinner wnt back to to a temple at shenzhen to slp.

Day 9 (5 JAN 2008)
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head back frm shenzhen to HK to take our luggage. thn had dim sum for lunch. thn slacked abit. thn headed to airport. which after tat is HOME SWEET HOME!!!

alrite shall write till here till i post up my fotos thn i shall edit my entry and make it more detailed.

off to HK

2007-12-28T11:16:00.000+08:00

yay. will be flying off to Hong Kong in a few hours time
well hope will be ok throughout the trip.

well till i get back to sg =)

xmas 2007

2007-12-26T00:52:00.001+08:00

had a fun and enjoyable xmas- cum- wei sheng bday party celebration at yuan ting hus.
ordered catering food and a mini bbq. was very full after all the food and the cakes.
well overall is good except for some minor setbacks. but still is fun and enjoyable!

well tis xmas is not really gd for me. coz having some minor illness. coughing, sneezing, and sometimes headache. all coming back frm time to time and taking turns to hit me.
hope tat i will be fine during my HK trip and oso after i come back...

and here are the fotos of the xmas party. =))

is the lightings tat created such effects.

the bday boy!

one question

2007-12-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

a simple post wif a simple question..

"will i be able to change to lift the barrier? "

p.s: pardon my drawing below. could not care less abt making it nice.

mistakes...

2007-12-22T00:30:00.000+08:00

seriously besides being unlucky lately. i oso found out/ noticed someting.
i have been doing lot of silly and dumb mistakes tat i can avoid. mistakes in actions, mistakes in talking. everyting. wonder wads wrong wif me recently...
and been tinking alot lately wonder why. haix

i really wish to mend all the mistakes tat i did. can someone anyone. tell me how do i mend my ways to pay back and tell me wads wrong wif me recently?!?!?!

-feel the pain >.<-

im a loser.

2007-12-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

down on luck these few days.
guess my luck has reached rock bottom. but thn agn maybe my luck was always at the bottom. heh...
well been quite moody tis few days. but well i donno..
all i can say is im a loser. loser in every single ting.... =_=

pain???

2007-12-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

10 more days till i fly of to HK wif my bud.
but at the same time. tis is a time limit for me to finish my FYP till a certain pt in order not to worry. so i hope can finish up the tings tat i aim for. haix. stress...
not a gd time for me now. stress, cough, sneezing, arm pain. all hitting on me now. i feel so unlucky. maybe i am unlucky all the while.haha

ok now for some emo posts.haha
well it seems tat my brain has been auto triggered to self protect mode for a certain ting to prevent myself and get my own emotions prepared for certain situations.
i really have not idea wads the end of the tunnel now. is it the end and is the light, or is an ongoing tunnel.
will i end up being happy?
or end up in the sea of pains again?
i really have no idea...

i guess for now i will juz walk one step at a time and see wad happens. and cont to wait and will always be waiting...

thou i find myself dumb and stupid. doing tings which i noe is not rite. but a certain part of me do not want to let go even thou i noe i will fall and hurt badly and may nvr noe will i ever be able to standup once agn. but i juz want to hold on no matter wad. and always waiting. and keep praying tat my feelings will be wrong and tat tings will turn out gd. guess im really stupid and dumb huh. haa. im such a loser....

all over

2007-12-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

finally my term test is over.. woot. the start of holiday!!!
but is oso the start of stress times.. haix

gotta rush all our proj now. but i belive all of us can do it!!!

gotta slp to catch up on those i lost.

p.s : eveyone in my grp is not useless. everyone has an impt role in my grp. if one is to say useless i tink i shld be the one instead =PP

2 papers down

2007-12-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

term test updates:
2 term test papers are done. WTS and MSAD. quite fairly ez papers. but will not expect high grades or wad not. coz dont want to be super disappointed later. haha

1 more paper to go which is Entrepreneurship. so far studid on it is gd. more of a understanding and know how to apply kind of subject, and tis favors me!! hahaha =DD

well shall cont to study now. gd luck to me. haha

term test

2007-12-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

So fast 7wks have passed and term test is coming once again

and i cant seem to study!
nth is going into my head!!
tings go in and come out the next sec.. crap.. nvr liked memorizing work coz i suck at it..

argh crap.. cant study =((

yuan ting dear bday 2007

2007-12-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

Today is the 2oth birthday of my dearest friend, yuan ting!!!
*WOOT*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUAN TING!!! (abit late in posting my blog...haha nvr expect to update so late at nite)
hope u will have a happy year ahead and stay happy and cute always!! =))
hope u liked ur presents =DD

ok tat aside... term test is like next wk and i have not started any revision or wasnt really listening to any lectures...im so screwed man...haix...wonder if i can make it for term test to achieve gd results and hit my personal target for term test and my final GPA grade...haix...sianz...really wonder if i can make it...

-term test coming.... -

real dream??

2007-12-02T00:50:00.000+08:00

Had a dream a nite back....seem so real...everyting i touched and the way i felt seem like in tat scene itself...
the ting i "touched" is so real..
the heat i "felt" was so real...
but sadly its only a dream...if such dream was reality...

is my time really up??

2007-11-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

is time really up???
standing on a clock and see it passing by

is it me tinking too much???
tinking back on all the tots tat had gone thru my head b4

wad if "sixth sense" is true???
but it did fail me b4 but i really doubt the chances of wrong feeling
wonder do u stay up wif him...if so i got nth to say..but juz my feeling is rite...

-wad is my time now??? -

random emo post

2007-11-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

ok *warning to all reader* the following is a random-emo post by DallasKHL / whitecomet:

somehw during my day today...the tot of my existence does it means anyting???
wad if one day an accident happened or something happened to me and im no longer ard or someting similar??? will it be of a big impact to anyone...doubt so...since im juz a 1 human being out of millions of people in the world...haha
maybe it maybe even better??? maybe other ppl will have happiness??? well tat is an ans tat is totally impossible to find out...haha

i have no idea y tis tot juz comes to my mind...haha...
like i said its juz some random-emo thought...so pls dont get bothered by it to all those who read tis...haha

guess is my right-eye tat is giving me some probs tat lead me to tis tot?? i donno

-blurry vision-

wad to do???

2007-11-24T22:14:00.000+08:00

hmmm...i now wonder wad i shld do...

said out wad i felt...

got a reply too...

asked myself wad i want to do...and can my ans pull me thru

well i guess now i shall keep a smile if possible and treat it as normal...

-hanging on till the end of time...waiting , hoping and praying everyday-

2 events 1st time...

2007-11-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

haha...had my first TP pass it on today (campus relay) today...is a 1.5km relay consisting of 7 ppl in a team...was the 5th runner for my team...well was quite ok and wanted to stop and walk halfway...but manage to somehw ran the whole distance and sprinted for the last 100m - 200m...haha
but tink overexerted abit...after the run was abt giddy and whole body was very cold after walking hm...
overall it was a fun and enjoyable event...and to yt do take care and recover soon =DD

a few days ago oso attended the feed-back session....was my first time oso...and quite cool hearing some of the other ppl suggestions... but some of the ppl there are juz too noisy and their ideas/suggestions are juz stupid and lame and no sense at all..and i tink is more of a complain session for thm thn feedback...haha

and shall rest now..haha

wad to do...

2007-11-23T01:31:00.000+08:00

once agn i played wif some tarot cards reading today...
i really do not know if i shld believe it or not...or maybe i shld follow wad my fren say to believe 50% of it...i donno

lost and confused currently...

my only last hope/wish now is to be able to have another chance and tat it will not end juz li tis...

tis is all i wish for...

another failure...

2007-11-22T14:31:00.002+08:00

now everyting juz hit me on my head...my tots and my feelings...it juz all come suddenly...and i have no idea if its rite...

have i and i think i failed once again....

Is my and i think my fate wif certain tings had ended and no matter wad i do nth will change...

Is wad and wad i think really gonna happen...if so i guess that the onli thing i can do i let go...thou i really do not wish to do so...

I do not know what to do now...im lost...once again

If only i can show that 100% that i wish to show....

another failure...

2007-11-22T14:31:00.001+08:00

MP

2007-11-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

finally started to coding for my MP...well lucky have quite a few reference so i manage to somewad know hw to start...haha
but as i progress today...i got lost and dont really noe wad to do next at certain pt...haha...but shall slowly digest all the codes and algorithms.

and a disturbing ting happened today... TP pass it on which i long ago contacted the teacher and got him noted...but today...i got news tat my place is not in and is taken away....i am like what the hell...i said it like early tis mth whn they still looking for ppl...but now i got the news tat my place is not in...crap!!!

now shall see hw tings progress..and i have a bad feeling abt tis -.-
want some memory abt tings i participate oso cant -.-"

-sometimes the tinking of wanting to hold ur hands juz crosses my mind out of no reason..but i really wonder if it is really possible for me to hold ur hands in mind... and if so whn will it be ??? -

project madess

2007-11-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

well...now all of the projects are really coming up...wif a few dead lines coming up soon...its not surprising to see my frens getting all stressed up wif the works =/

and my MP the more we discuss we find tat out proj is getting more and more challenging and alot of work is needed to be done...hmmm

i really wish i can do someting for them being all stressed up...but well i guess the onli ting i can do now is to provide them wif all my support...

and i promise tat i will always be there to share the burden...and if everyting falls i promise i will be the last to fall and support till the very end and fall the last or nvr to fall =))

end of d-cup

2007-11-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

well...tis yr director's cup practically i watched all the basketball matches
well i would say the most exciting match will be steven liews team vs the "ah bengs" team...tat was the most interesting match of all...
but as i see thm play and fighting for their positions...i really wonder whn can i be able to play like them??? playing in a competition and fighting for the top 3 places...somehw i still feel envy even there is not trophy or wad not...to me i find it is an achievement...an achievement tat i can be proud of...
i really wonder whn will i have such achievements or someting for me to be proud of and ppl will link me to tat once they tink of it...haix...

now work is starting to pile up...but still manageable...and is time for me to start my engine which has been in off mode since god-knows whn...haha

and congratulation to yuan ting and her team for being the champion in captain's ball...and i apologize for not being able to go and support u fully...but doubt its needed anw if i want to...haha

new hair colour + style

2007-11-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

today yk and bestie yt accompanied me and ws go kimage to have our haircuts...and i had a new colour for my hair too =DD

well...ws definitely looks better wif short hair...so ws...DONT LEAVE UR HAIR TILL SO LONG LE LA!!! haha

well i have a new hair colour and new hair style...liked the results of both...looks cool...haha...can see at the bottom my hair colour =D

Wei Sheng's haircut process

My new hair colour!!

is it me???

2007-11-07T12:11:00.001+08:00

wad shld i believe in now??

maybe u noe tis will happen? but y do i still go for it? am i stupid? yes i tink i am...always going against tings tat i noe it will happen... wad for i do not know...

is it fate? is it destiny?
can i change thm if i can go back in time and chose a diff path?

now wad shld i do??
its so hard to put on a front to cover up...coz i juz do not want to cause other ppl trouble as it is my own prob...i do not want others to have my trouble to bare and to feel bad...
but wad shld i do??

director cup 07

2007-11-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

Yes my team A380 consisting of me,zhen wei, yong keong, jun loong, wei chong, viktor, and viktor fren(ps forgot his name)...and i tot wif my last yr in TP i can leave a memory wif me by at least winning a match in a competition...but i guess my tis memory dream will forever remain a dream tat cant be fulfilled...haix and coz of tis lost.. i have an empty feeling in my heart =/

thn today during my entrepreneur tutorial, there is an activity to ask us tink of our skills...and the skills tat i tot of are:
1) research skills
2) editing skills
3) listening and giving advice skills
4) interpersonal skill
5) adaptability

well i noe tat for pt 4 is pure bullshit...haha
but i donno the 4 other pts...do i really possess thm or are they juz plain bullshit too??? tis activity really got me tinking of my roles in grp works and tat do i have any skills tat can really help my grp in projects.

and ya...was watching the d-cup basketball competition today...as i was watching the feeling of 我输得很不甘愿 came to me agn...and was really envy of the ppl playing there =/
and at the same time i oso wish i can go back in time and took a path tat i tink i shld...the path of joining the intsc or shld i say iitsc in the past... as i observe they are a bunch of fun ppl...and i really wish i had joined thm last time...and if i did i will have lots more frens now as compared to the limited social circle i have now...haix...i wish i can go back in time... and chose a diff path...

and tings in the past were so different...everyting are much more fun and enjoying...haix...

TOR

2007-11-03T12:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm...now all the proj is starting to pile up...juz hand up our MP TOR(term of reference) and requirement specs to out supervisor...had some major change in our proj frm wad we had in mind...but overall manage to do out everyting on time and manage to submit it up...

well...i tink our first submission so far is quite gd as we manage to make it as detailed as possible...so i tink is quite gd for our first attempt submission =))

thou i tink my role in the grp is not tat significant...as most jobs are done by yt and jerry...so i dont tink my role is really tat big in our grp..haha
so my grp have these 2 ppl is enuf alrdy...no need me le...haha
since one is gd in programming and one is gd in report...any ting major is covered...haha (being abit emo here)

and me and my frens joined the director's cup basketball competition...we submitted out names on fri and our 1st match is on mon -.-
well wish us luck...oh and we are called.....
A380...haha

-now i have to start all over...i really wish i can have a time machine to go back in time of those days...i really wish so... -

glenn bday 2007

2007-10-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

28-Oct-2007

celebrated glenn bday(alot of bdays i noe....) wif my other sec sch frens namely esther,yw,cantley
met up wif esther,yw and glenn at 1230pm first and wnt to bedok and sang...sang till damn high and happy today...which really feel gd =DD
thn after singing met up wif cantley at TM and all 5 of us wnt to seoul garden and have out dinner..
thn wnt out of TM and wnt to a void deck near our hus and cont chatting wif one another...had a really great time wif thm and had a FUN and GREAT time chatting, laughing, and catching up wif my sec sch buds =DD

somehw today i feel very happy and high...for donno wad reasons...haha
guess im really trying to be happy now for myself and for someone too =DD

Glenn bday 2007=D

Jia Xing bday 2007

2007-10-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

26-Oct-2007

today celebrated Jia Xing bday at his hus where his mum cooked hm cooked food for us =D
but b4 tat met up wif yk,yt and jx at bedok int after my driving lesson to go SGH to visit cn who was admitted there....whn i reached there and saw him...got a very sad environment over me...he seem so tired (yes i noe he will be rite after an operation) but i juz can feel like he so mentally and psychologically tired...and yet im there standing looking at him and cant do a ting for him....the onli ting now i can do for him is to provide him wif all the support tat i can give...

After visiting cn cabbed down to bedok to jx hus...waited for the remaining of the party consisting of zw,jerry,ws and dj to arrive at jx hus and had dinner and cake cutting session tgt =D

After dinner and cake...wnt for a car ride in dj car...wnt to the newly opened KPE expressway which was the grand opening on tat day too...it was very nice and clean and eh new? haha...like DUH rite...coz it juz opened...haha...well can see a couple of fotos of it down below =D

Jx Bday

KPE express

thank you dear

2007-10-24T23:38:00.000+08:00

i juz want to thank a certain someone very much and really want to find a way to say thanks...haha

to the certain someone:
thanks for wad u did for the past 2 days...always cheering me up =))
i really want to thank you for tat =]]

screw ur tinkings / happy ending?

2007-10-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

ok i shall go straight to the point...
juz wanna say to those who tinks wad they tink they are rite pls dont do so...coz u nvr are!!! so dont come ard being a smart alex and tinks tat wadever u tink is correct...pls tink agn smart asses b4 making such assumptions...screw all your tinkings!!! u will nvr noe the person better thn himself/herself...

well...out of all these at least there is someting tat make me happy...im really glad tat such ting happened and i really happy tat im tis lucky =DD

-pissed yet happy-

wad can i do...

2007-10-22T21:46:00.001+08:00

hmmm..firstly im surprised tat i manage to exceed a slight target i did for myself today =DD will aim higher next...haha

thn there is someting i saw/know tat even i saw/know i cant do anyting can i?? i can onli keep quiet abt it so as not to let others noe...haha...but tat helped to motivate me somehw today on the ting tat i was aiming to achieve i said earlier...haha

well...but tis post is actually to be a emo post (ya agn) haha...but well...trying not too be TAT emo...=P
well actually was tinking wad tings i can do tat once ppl tink of tat particular ting will auto tink of me??

i got frens who are gd in cooking...
i got frens who are gd in computer tings like programming and all...
i got frens who are rich...
i got frens who are smart...
i got frens who are hardworking...
i got frens who are able to adapt fast...
i got frens who are gd organizers in anyting...
i got frens who can entertain everyone...
i got frens who are impt and everyone will remb and tink of thm...

i wonder wad things i can do so tat i can be one new category to be placed abv???
maybe can be a person who always do stupid mistakes...coz i juz did one today...i wonder is there anyway for me to repay tat dumb and stupid mistake?

-wad can i do??-

jerry bday 2007

2007-10-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

20th Oct 2007 celebrated Jerry bday at TM pizza hut..had a great time wif all my buddies and celebrating bday wif jerry =D
but today 21th Oct 2007 is his actual bday so...Happy Birthday Jerry!! ur 19 now so try to turn up ur "coldness" haha

yest oso revamped my rm slightly. Changed the table for my desktop...my current table is really NICE and i love it as i been waiting to put my laptop side by side wif my desktop...u guys can see it in my pic below later

Today wnt wif YT bestie dear to FKS to attend a so-called meeting abt the HK trip we 2 are going end of tis yr on Dec...well...wad i want to say is tat whn i step there...i have a diff feeling frm going into other temples to attend such events...a more relax kind of feeling and i didnt feel tense like i will do if i go to other temples...yup =D
well tinking of helping out at FKS on the videoing and photography part...as those who dont noe im actually very interested in photography =D
well shall see hw tings go...
anw for the HK trip it seem really interesting and fun...cant wait to go...hope the time comes fast =D

Jerry the Birthday boy!!! CUTE CAKE!!! pikachu and doremon!! haha

My new revamped desktop and laptop positions =D

-photography-

emo post

2007-10-19T17:45:00.000+08:00

one random emo post...

-wad will my role be in all the tings i do??? will it ever be an impt one???-

drift??

2007-10-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm...been tinking of tings of wad will happen after graduations...will be going NS for me...really wonder if i will be able to keep in contact wif everyone and esp one person...
the tinking of drifting apart juz comes back to haunt me frm time to time...haix
and really wonder if ________ goes overseas wad will happen??? will i still be able to keep in contact??? and be like hw i am currently am wif you??? like i said the tinking of drifting apart juz keeps coming back to haunt me....haix..really wonder... =/

-wad am I to do if it really happens-

tarot cards

2007-10-17T21:33:00.000+08:00

today met esther "mei mei" for lunch at TM yoshinoya...thn followed her to tamp library to borrow some books for her sch proj..thn slacked ard in Century Sq...

mei mei bought tarot cards to play...and i tried...haha...donno to believe the results...maybe i shld juz believe half of it...

summary of readings as of below:

card 1: a start of a new beginning;first experience;change myself
card 2: there currently an obstacle but may clear in future
card 3: gotten help b4 and will have returns
card 4: success.

welll...donno if its true or wad not...haha...shall see =/

class bbq 12 oct 07

2007-10-13T02:02:00.000+08:00

had a bbq wif C120 and grp of frens...
venue at clearwater bedok (yk hus)
had fun chatting wif all my frens and buddies...and had some fun laughing... been a long time since we had such gathering...really wish to have it agn soon =)

however for a moment of time b4 stepping back hm...i felt i was out of place during a certain time...had the kind of feeling like a beggar in a rich city filled wif onli rich ppl and onli could make rich frens which made him felt akaward...
now filled wif shame, emberassment, and alittle jealousy...he is trying to find any ways by any means to find a way to earn more money to reach the same standard...

-Felt out of place-

hmmm weird....

2007-10-11T20:06:00.000+08:00

yest wnt gym wif esther "mei mei" in the morning thn after gym accompanied her to queue for doughnuts at suntec (2nd time accompanying ppl)
its really been some times since i last saw her and talked to her and all...yest was a fun and entertaining day wif my "mei mei"...haha
she is as usual as mad as i last time remb...once her laughing trigger is set off...she sure to laugh hard and for quite awhile...haha
but really had a great time wif her catching up old times...=D

but at the same time of being happy...i oso had another feeling which i cant describe is wad...after reading certain tings...i juz had tis weird feeling inside of me and i cant explain wad it is....is like i miss tat particular person and really want to talk and hear all the stories tat i can...but i juz noe its impossible...and sometimes i juz feel like i want to be at the same place as the person rite now at tat very moment doing the same ting as the person and be together wid the person...but as u noe...its impossible...i juz donno y tis feeling grew stronger somehw...really cant explain y is it so....i really wonder y i had tis feeling...
sometimes i dont not wad to have any of tis feelings but it juz cant be controlled by me...why is it so!! =(

p.s: may upload fotos onli after permission granted...lolx

-Can someone tell me why i have tis feeling?-

wonder

2007-10-02T10:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wonder after a dream...is tat dream a gd dream, a happy one, a weird one or wad...coz sometimes it seem so real but at the same time its not...and i wonder sometimes will dream ever come true or happen in reality...i really wonder..

oso tinking set me wondering if i didnt do certain actions at a pt of time....wad will the outcome be...will it be different...or will it remain the same outcome???

and sometimes i wonder wad are my chances whn i do someting...and is it wise for me to do tat particular action...coz sometimes i wonder the outcome/consequence of the action...but thn agn i want to do it...haix

i wonder hw low can i pus my own set of standards/expectations to be...coz i can accept any kind of failure..except the failure of my own standards or expectations...

i wonder...

-wad are my chances of my current action....i wonder.... -

new com + mid-autum

2007-09-27T00:27:00.000+08:00

weeee....the pass days were fun =DD

firstly on sat (23rd sept 2007) i made a new com...weee...had no intention of making any new com or wad not...but well...due to some reason and situation i made a new com...hmmm...maybe is a gaming com...but im not too sure abt it...but is definatly better thn my old com =D

thn there was yest...celebrated mid-autum festival wif c120 peps...was fun cycling, eat ing at lagoon and playing sparklers and candles at east coast...but the sparklers are abit wasteful as all of it were nearly taken to try to make "rocket" which all failed in the end...haha
well...i was really happy to see "you" although i didnt really 100% enjoy the celebration coz maybe is my unawareness tat actaully you talk to me the most...but i donno...haha
wad i really was happy is you love "it" which i fear u wont or wad...haha =DD

well..it has been fun these few days...even for my driving...although now i dread going even im eger to book a lesson...coz im lazy to go out of my hus sometimes...but seeing tat im going to clear module 2 and moving on the module 3 makes me happy and more eager to get more lessons...but at the same time i fear of not being able to book a test date for pratical driving...haix...stress...

the pictures:
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My new com...all DIY and my first time doing wifout any help =D

Dinner at east coast park lagoon one 25th sept 2007 =)

- Daisuki but can i??? i donno =/ -

一眼瞬间 lyrics

2007-09-14T00:34:00.000+08:00

another lyrics of a nice songs =)

一眼瞬间 - 张惠妹/萧敬腾
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(女)白茫茫的星光洒在长长路上
　　想念的冰凉　你知道吗
　　浅浅的微笑　深似海的眼光
　　突然掀起我　滔天的巨浪

(男)你相信吗　这是命吗
　　这次我们放弃抵抗
　　那怕拥抱在身上　划下深深的伤

(合)只要看你一眼一瞬间　哪怕是最後画面
　　我的世界　因为爱过而完美　谁都不该离太远
OH...
　　只要看你一眼一瞬间　足够我熬过千年
　　我不後悔　爱若让末日提前
　　我们要一起　好好迎接那句点

(女)白茫茫的星光　洒在长长路上
　　想念的冰凉　你知道吗
　浅浅的微笑　深似海的眼光
　　突然掀起我　滔天的巨浪

(男)你相信吗　这是命吗
　　这次我们放弃抵抗
　　那怕拥抱　在身上　划下深深的伤

(合)只要看你一眼一瞬间　哪怕是最後画面
　　我的世界　因为爱过而完美　谁都不该离太远
OH...
只要看你一眼　一瞬间　足够我熬过千年
　　我不後悔　爱若让末日提前
　　我们要一起　好好迎接那句点

(女)如果相爱是错

(男)错过又算什麼

(合)这一次我们
抵死不放手
　　往彼此心理面跳
　　跳到天荒地老
　　OH...

(合)只要看你一眼一瞬间　哪怕是最後画面
　　我的世界　因为爱过而完美　谁都不该离太远
OH...
　　只要看你一眼一瞬间　足够我熬过千年
　　我不後悔　爱若让末日提前
　　我们要一起　好好迎接那句点

(男)我们要一起

(合)好好迎接那句点

One litre of tears song lyrics

2007-09-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

Well juz started watching one litre of tears the jap drama...so far i feel tat it is a sad story...and bottom are the lyrics of 2 songs frm the show...

ONLY HUMAN - K
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On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we're waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams, we can't have a reason to run away
We've got to go, to that far away summer's day

If we find it tomorrow, we can't sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on

In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring

The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall

Even if we've grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further

As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on

Konayuki(Snow Powder) - Remioromen
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Season of snow powder always come
Although we are mixed up with a mass of people
we are looking on the same sky
Blown by the wind, and we are chilled by it

I may not know everything about you
Nevertheless, I've found you among 100 million of
people
There's no proof but I'm very serious of it

It's impossible to live in the same time with no single quarrel
If we can't be honest, happiness and sadness are just meaningless

If the snow powder may whiten deep to our heart
Could we both share our loneliness?

I would press my ear near to your heart
And go down deep into the place where I hear that voice and meet you once again

We want to understand each other
It's me who softly brush the surface
Just by tightly gripping your numb and cold hand
We are tied to each other

Snow powder is too fragile
In front of us, keep on leaving stains on the rough asphalt forever

Snow powder doesnot rely on time, moving our heart
Nevertheless, I'd still like to keep on protecting you

If the snow powder may whiten deep to our heart
It will cover both our loneliness and return it to the sky...

new haircut!

2007-09-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

today juz went have a new haircut today...accompanied by my bestest buddy... *drum roll* sarah wan yuan ting!!! hahaha
well...u really made my day of coming all the way down to accompany go have my haircut and helping me choose a style...haha...thx alot =D

well really liked my new hairstyle...so cool!!! its one of the kind of hairstyle i want to make...haha
welll...after my haircut wnt to bedok to buy lunch thn head back hm and chiong my world of warcraft battlegrounds...haha

here is the pics we took..or my buddy took =D

p.s: YT pls eat more and rest more...so u wont look like so shag =)

farewell dinner...

2007-09-02T20:44:00.000+08:00

firstly i missed going back to shss during the teacher day celebration...although i really want to go back...but due to certain reasons and was alone...so didnt go back...haix...

but anyways...had a really great time yesterday wif my sec sch buddies..had dinner wif them and chill and talked alot wif each other...really miss those days wif thm...and tinking back i tink i really wasted my sec sch life away...haix
but yest dinner was a farewell dinner for chi long and huimian as they will be going to china for their attachment for 5 mths...well tats a long time and wont be seeing thm for 5 mths...haha
but at least yest we enjoyed ourselves...well for me it is a cfm ting
here are the pics:

Hairspray...

2007-08-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hairspray
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Cast: John Travolta, Michelle Pfeiffer, Queen Latifah
Genre:Musical
Running Time:116 minutes
Synopsis: Sixteen years after the release of the original film, New Line Cinema is bringing a feature film adaptation of the Tony award-winning Broadway production Hairspray to life. Featuring new and original material based on John Waters' 1988 cult classic about star-struck teenagers on a local Baltimore dance show, the comedy features a remarkable collection of talent including John Travolta, Queen Latifah, Michelle Pfeiffer, Christopher Walken, Amanda Bynes, Allison Janney, Brittany Snow, Zac Efron, Elijah Kelley, producers Craig Zadan and Neil Meron (Chicago), and director Adam Shankman (Bringing Down The House). The new screenplay for Hairspray was written by Leslie Dixon (Freaky Friday, Outrageous Fortune).

watched tis wif my buddies juz now...a really really nice musical show which i will recommend to everyone =)
the love scenes are nice and cool...really potraying tat love has no bounds and tat u will really never noe who u will fall in love wif....in the show its was at the timeline whn america was still quite racist abt blacks and whites but there are love scene between a black guy and a white gal...cool..it really showed tat whn u like/love someone anyting can happened...how sweet =)
thn there are scenes of dance and singing (DUH!!! since its a musical movie..haha) all the dances and songs all i can say is...SUPERB!
really a nice show to watch...mixture of comedy and dance...really cool and nice...
5 stars frm me =D

-Love has no bounds =D -

roller blading...

2007-08-28T10:27:00.000+08:00

ok...now im quite decided to learn to roller blade once agn...although i noe abit...but i want to learn so tat i can play it like walking...haha

got the sudden interest after watching air gear...haha
but is cool =D

-roller blading...-

big hoo ha...

2007-08-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

firstly want to say tat i started on my pratical driving lessons alrdy...yeah...had 2 lessons last wk...going to have my 3rd one tml...wee...but i must say actual driving is not as ez as i had imagined...but i will get use to it soon...i guess

next there is 2 tings tat is going on now tat im rather bothered by it...
1) ODEX
2) campus superstar

firstly odex...it is a company tat happily go ard catching ppl downloading animes using bittorrent...and it is really ridiculious...FORCING ppl to buy their product instead which is of LOWER QUALITY thn fansubs and the subbings of the anime is totally wrong at time...and the "proclaimed" their ODEX product to be "cheap" and gd quality??? ha!
does a box of anime costing SGD$49.90 cheap?!?!?! and of low quality... dont make me laugh!
i can juz order it online wif free shipping and quality much better then ODEX...so ODEX dont tink u are the "law" as now tings have changed...
for more details read the link below:
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/295902/1/.html

next is campus superstars...i really wonder wads the big hoo ha abt it man...come on la...their singing are NOT TAT FANTASTIC for god sake!!! its onli their appearance tat is helping them to "win" a singing competition...but i tink is more of appearance competition...their singing are juz AVERAGE!!! so i donno wad the big fuzz abt it juz coz their cute?!?!?! pls i tink they look AVERAGE too...if ppl out there reading tis are not happy so be it...not tat im saying im gd looking too...but really...ppl nowadays i really wonder...
and for god sake!!! tis is a SINGING competition...and the winner is winning votes by ppl voting for him juz because he is cute?!?!?! wth!?!?!?!?!
are u guys voting listen to music or wad...ppl nowadays i really wonder hw they "listen" to music...supporting an artist by his/her look???? come on la... whn u listen it on radio, computer, mp3 since whn will u be looking at thm whn listening??? ppl who support artist by looks i got 4 words for you..
"YOU DONT APPRICIATE MUSIC!!!"
ok enuf of my runtings....shall stop and let the ppl read...i dont give a damn if ppl out there talk behind my back or wad...is MY thoughts...so live wif it!

ok even all tat...today was quite a moody day...was home alone...and the hus was darn quiet...which led me to think alot..wif the additional effect of the music i listen..but well didnt tink as much thou...and suddenly half way thru u came into my mind...i wonder y....

-big hoo ha day... -

Bedok 85....

2007-08-25T01:15:00.000+08:00

after such a long time...today wnt to bedok 85 wif my gd frens to have dinner tog...it has been a long time since we go there tog for dinner...had lots of fun toking, laughing and increasing our knowledge by mr yap...haha
i really want to "cut" open his head to see wad is contained inside...is it human brain or computer chips...he seems to know everyting whn we ask him abt it and can give us explainations and examples in details...like WOW he noes everyting...wonder hw he noe everyting and remb it...haha...but he is a nice and fun teacher =)
but at the same time today during dinner was tinking of a few tings at the same time too...but have to try to cover up as not to make it too obvious...haix..y am i tinking agn...i really wonder...
well need to rest for tml 2nd pratical driving lesson...weee

-tinking once agn of all negetive tings...damn-

doughnut factory....

2007-08-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

today wnt to suntec and queued for doughnuts at doughnut factory wif ________
was happy as i was able to see and accompany _________ for today =D
wish i will be able to do tis more in future wif ____________

haha...anw the queue was not as long as wad i imagined...ard 15-20mins wait and is my turn... bought 2 dozen of doughnuts(1 dozen for frens 1 for family) well...did the ordering the ez way...juz told the person 1 of each...haha...well after trying a glazed doughnut(is original flavor onli tat the "sugar" on top is glazed) and really like the taste of it...haven try the rest thou...haha...tink shld be nice too =D

well after buying wnt to deliver some boxes of doughnuts to _________ office for the collegues ... waited for _________ downstairs and was quite happy waiting as was able to go back tog...haha...(so _________ no worries making me wait so long ok! dont need feel guilty =D)

well today was quite a fun and happy day for me =)

lousy NAPFA...

2007-08-22T00:38:00.000+08:00

well had my NAPFA today...well... to me i didnt hit any of my own expectations execpt for my sit-up which i was quite confident in...but the rest im really disappointed...although i act as thou i do not care abt my own results but deep down i noe i care and take it very seriously...
even though i set my aims to be lower thn my original aim by alot...but i still did not archieve my "amended" targets...haix...disappointed...but was not as disappointed in myself as bad as i will normally be thou today =)
time for me to start my training and be discipline...

-disappointed in myself once agn...-

NAPFA...

2007-08-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

finally its napfa test in poly for all yr 3 students...

well its been a long time since i did NAPFA test...i tink i will fare rather badly for tis one...its been a long time since i last trained for it...haix...kinda scared...

well shall see tml hw i fare...

desprerate

2007-08-20T00:55:00.000+08:00

hmmm...maybe im desperate...but i donno...i guess so or is it juz my natural reaction whn it comes down to tis...i really wonder...haix...

haix...sometimes i really wish my mind is in total blank space and tat im staring in space...i really dont mind tat coz sometimes i really dont wish to tink of anyting...but apprently whn i want to do tat my mind dont allow me to frm time to time... but i guess im trying to get rid of all my tinkings...
but i juz cant help to tink of a certain "thing" frm time to time... and sometimes it juz got worse...haix
well shall not tink of some tings noe tat i dont tink i shld not...

-I wish i can ________ for certain "thing" -

change....

2007-08-18T01:16:00.000+08:00

its been some times since i last keep tinking of tings and end up being "tinking too much"

didnt really slp well for past 2 nites due to some random thoughts going thru my head... haix...wonder y is it back to tis old habit... maybe im really tinking too much abt sometings...

well...shall start to make a change now for the better and i hope tat i can make the change that i want....

- I wish i can be able to have a chance to _______________________ -

ARK

2007-08-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

ever wonder wad does the word ARK stands for...
juz found out frm a show it can for a pharse..

ARK = Act of Random Kindess

cool huh...haha...but too bad i didnt tink it on my own...haha

well juz a nice meaning to it tat i find it nice...
oh heres another one btw...and somehw modified it from somewhr...

" we're given opportunities instead of the actual thing we want"

enjoy and cheers to all out there =)

End of sip ine 2 days...

2007-08-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

seems like quite a few of my frens cant bare to leave the company tat they are attached to...and if they have the chance to extend their stay in their company they sure to take up tat offer... I really wished tat i had gotten into a company tat will make me have tis kind of feelings...but apparently im not tat lucky to get such a gd company...haix...
really to be frank the company im attached to did not leave any deep or nice impression within me...unlike wad i always hear frm my frens...they always seems to have fun wif their collegue and supervisors and always seems to be able to communicate...but my work place im totally opposite... the whole office feels so dead and boring... and tat i cant seem to communicate wif the ppl there...haix...such a bad experience in working... unable to learn new tings, unable to have fun, and juz cant seems to click wif the ppl there unlike other places tat i worked b4 which all are fun.... well left wif 2 days b4 im out of there...but somehw have an empty feeling of leaving there... an empty feeling of having no deep impression...

-miss you and hope to see u smile and laugh soon once agn-

countdown of sip...

2007-08-06T10:46:00.000+08:00

4 more days and is end of SIP...woooohoooo
it means i can start to wake up late agn...yeah!!!
but well to sum up abit of my days in my company...well one word to describe... BORED
i always seems to have no work for me to be done and i always seems to be free...which i do not like as i did not learn anyting...crappy company...always delaying tings...frm work to pay....wth...
be anyways left wif 4 days and im out of here...yay!!! till thn shall slack in office AGAIN....

-somehow I ____________________ -

confession???

2007-08-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

after struggling on my own and myself...i finally said it out...
but did i do the right ting??? shld i really say it out???
now im scared tat my tis small action will affect the relationship...im really scared...

maybe i shld not tink too much like wad someone say...maybe i juz tink too much??? but ii cant help it...haix...someone help me!!!

even if i stop tinking wads next??? wad shld i do???
shld i move or shld i keep still at my current spot??? for now i shall hold on and keep still..and let nature take its course...

-haix... tink tink tink...im scared =( -

simpsons and paprika

2007-07-31T15:29:00.000+08:00

watched simpsons and paprika on Sunday and Monday respectively...

well...simpsons was not the original plan at first...we were suppose to watch Die Hard 4.0 but the tix were sold out for the timing we wanted...so ended up watching the simpsons movie...cant believe i paid $8 to watch the movie....but wells overall is juz a funny show...

Next is paprika which i watched yest...a really nice anime movie which i will recommend to everyone...if u have the chance go and watch...below is the synopsis
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PAPRIKA 红辣椒
synopsis

When a machine that allows therapists to enter into people's dreams and explore their unconscious thoughts is stolen, the research facility is sent into uproar and all hell breaks loose. In the wrong hands, the device could be devastating, allowing the user to completely annihilate a dreamer's personality while they are asleep. Only a young female doctor Atsuko Chiba, can stop it. Entering the dream world under her exotic alter-ego, code name "PAPRIKA," she attempts to discover who is behind the plot to undermine the new invention.

director: Satoshi Kon
cast: Megumi Hayashibara, Tôru Furuya, Kôichi Yamadera
genre: Animation-SciFi
runtime: 90 mins
rating: NC16 (Some Nudity)

feel bad

2007-07-29T00:14:00.000+08:00

haix...feel so bad after turning down a request...haix...
really wish i can go but bz the next day...
really sry i cant go and play mahjong today...feeling damn bad now...haix

currently oso selling my cardigan @ $60...interested ppl feel free to sms me

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shoulder to shoulder:18" - 19" (45cm - 48cm)
chest : 40"- 42" (101cm - 106cm)
length of cardigan(top to bottom): 26.5" (67cm)
length of sleeves:24" (61cm)

emo day...

2007-07-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

today the office very empty due to the absence of the supervisor...and the other TP intern went hm halfway due to her illness...
after lunch was alone in office and started to feel emo donno y...and the wif the weather being cold...felt really lonely for the moment at the office there alone... and started to tink of several mistakes tat i have done so far...haix...and the tot of tis question came to my head and asked myself "Am i an attention seeker??? coz i feel lonely??? maybe im really am an attention seeker..." tis juz pop into my head...haix...
wad a cold and lonely weather...

-feeling lonely and emo-

tinking agn

2007-07-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

sneezing one whole day is nvr a gd ting or wad not...argh...hate tis feeling of sneezing one whole day...

well anw been back to my old tinking-alot-for-no-reason self...and i donno y...haix
and wads more is a weird dream i had recently which makes me wonder a few tings...haix...tinking of so many tings...and certain tings i do not dare to face it and ask myself the question as i really fear of my own ans and its outcome/consequences..
but one ting im glad is i have a gd,understand and cute close buddy who is always by my side and able to lend me a listening ear =D (if u noe who u are...thx =])

well been bothered by some stuffs and tinking too much maybe...well onli time will tell =S

my Bday 2007

2007-07-21T01:03:00.000+08:00

Date: 19/July/2007
Venue: Cafe Oliv - Katong
Operation: My birthday...

well shall go wif the saying of "a picture speaks a thousand words" so shall post pics and less words =D

The Ppl
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The Food
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and finally want to thank all tat were there
and special thanks to DJ and bestie YT dear for organizing tis celebration =D

neoprint wif "dear" and joanna

2007-07-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

juz feeling bored so decided to upload some neoprints tat i took wif YT and joanna whn they came down to bugis to meet for lunch

The original neoprint picture.

Cropped out pic 1

Cropped out pic 2 (i look weird here whn i smile...look like a gal...lolx)

Cropped out pic 3

lol...fun wif yt "dear"

2007-07-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

hahahaha.... whn close frens are really close they tend to do stupid and fun tings..haha

really interesting...haha

4 more wks left till end of attachment...cant wait till it end...
but hope tat i can cont working at the office...reasons being
1) increase pay of $7/hr = $1120/mth =)
2) save my time looking/searching/hunting for part time jobs outside(unless someone got lobang for me)

well i hope tat i can hear gd news in the remaining wks

have fun wif "stead"

2007-07-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

wahahaha...shall no eleborate on anyting...

feel free to let ur ideas run WILD!!!!

Lets all have fun abt "it"

well let the fun begin!!!

=D

Pics JL bday 2007

2007-07-09T01:53:00.000+08:00

Pics uploaded as stated!!!
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The nEbO card tat i made whn i wnt to AMK hub yest(Back of card)

Front of card...

the nEbO mIP tapz card(Front)

Back of card...

The food..
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Flounder with cheese (yuan ting's meal)

Lamb cutlet (ding jie's meal)

Steak (my meal =D )

Pork ribs (jerry's meal)

Lastly the bday boy!
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smile....

Jun Loong bday 2007

2007-07-08T02:45:00.000+08:00

Celebrated Jun Loong's birthday today...wnt to Tao's restaurant for a meal...a 7-course meal for $28.00. Quite worth the price for the food...all the food i had is nice and no complains abt it shall upload some of the dish pics in future =)
thn after thn hang ard for a while thn headed hm...but wnt to meet my regular supper grp for supper at some HK cafe at katong... wanted to eat dumplings but was not placed in the order...so didnt get to eat...but oh wells.. was quite tired actually...so didnt really do much whn having supper....haha

Oh made my nEBO card and nEBO mip tapz card...weeee
shall go to slp now...post the pics in future

change...

2007-07-01T00:28:00.001+08:00

added a playlist and changed my tagboard of my blog...

minor changes to my blog...

and now onto the next stage for me

yk bday 2007

2007-06-27T10:53:00.000+08:00

yest wnt to celebrate yk bday at parkway jack's place.. had a gd meal and an enjoyable time wif my frens =D

after tat wnt to play pool, and after playing i conclude tat i cant play pool for nuts...i juz sux in tis sports...haix...

from this moment - shania twain

2007-06-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

FROM THIS MOMENT ON - Shania Twain
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From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

A piece of nice sentimental song...well..heard playing on some strangers' wedding at the same restaurant as my grandma bday on sun....nice song...any1 wanna listen can ask frm me...

thinking...

2007-06-24T15:54:00.000+08:00

wonder hw often a de ja vu dream can happen....and most of the time it happens is at an event where it is the most unexpected...
juz a stupid dream led to lots of tinking...which led to lack of slp...damn
y must it happen...

-think, think, think -

work finally

2007-06-23T01:52:00.001+08:00

ok wanted to change my background music but seems like having some prob and the music is not changed whereas i alrdy changed it...weird...wonder if ppl out there can help me listen to check if it has changed to a diff music???

finally after 2mths of rotting in office...finally gonna have work to do and is PHP programming...FINALLY!!!!
work has come and is programming...wee...cant wait for them to assign my area and start on it...weee

-stupid dumb dream...-

edit ninja pon & zi

2007-06-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

A pic of editing a pon&zi pic which done whn im bored...and tink is nicer

Here is the original pic of the pon&zi pic...unedited...lolx

(sry if my editing sux...cant really be bothered to do a proper job)

tired....

2007-06-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

weee...i nvr find natural wind to be so helpful (besides when flying kite)... now i find another usefulness...if there is stong gusts of wind blowing from one side, and u have ur normal fan blowing at the highest speed from the other side it will end up having a nice side parting effect...well is actually the kind i like (tis is onli applicable for guys)...well after tat i had an easy time styling my hair...nicely donw =)

well...got nth to post actually...onli tat went out till quite late for the pass 3 days...yup...and aiming to get a leather bag from leather ark tis wk...hope can =)

anw i'm tired...really tired...

pon & zi pics

2007-06-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

some of the Pon and Zi pics that i liked...update somemore soon =)

bored at work agn...

2007-06-08T11:08:00.000+08:00

super bored at work, with nth to do agn...haix...

well at least now i noe tat my earphone port is working as i was previously wrongly inform tat its not working...but apprently it is working prefectly fine... so now i can watch shows online in office and i dont really care if anyone sees sicne the chairman is not ard...

oso took the free time everyday slacking in office to go read on C++. Is more or less the same as C# but some tings are easier as compared to C#, and is quite easy to grasp as it can be studied by your ownself.

haha...im oso too bored till went to find pics of Pon & Zi(thx to EvAn for telling me their names)...the pics are cute and esp wad they say in the air bubble...shall upload some pics in future soon...